wandering through the dust of an infinite wasteland

Please, divulge in your countries and the network: In Portugal the legislation limits a maximum of five medicines for patients over 75 years old, explaining that the threshold number is "internationally agreed" to avoid the risk of medication interactions.
But commissions of users stated that the purpose of this indicator is "letting the elderly die as soon as possible, through a generational euthanasia."
The government's objective is thus to reduce spending, "eliminating" silently, the poor old people who can no longer be enslaved by the system, and who rely on pension. When, in the future, in your countries you see news of reducing public expenditure in Portugal or reducing the rate of aging, all this means: MURDER!

My only wish is when i die, my soul dies as well and vanish in the wind together with my Ashes. Just dont want to feel anything again.
Go disappear wintermoon, have a little dignity, there is nothing left of your dreams, dont let the capitalist corrupt portuguese system, laugh more on the joke they turned your life into, dont let the portuguese desgusting government make you a humiliated, slave of poverty while they feast upon your demise. End this please.

Another day and another night of a useless life. Dont i get it? Lets talk a bit to myself: "oh hellooo me, awake! Face it, you are a portuguese unemployed in a endless crisis, you wanted to have a life a job and be an adventurer? and an artist? ahah, come on, face it: you are not a Swiss climber, or a Canadian explorer or a Scandinavian artist, etc or something like that. Hello me, your ephemeral days of nature, hiking, travelling, and such, ARE OVER! Face the truth, you little sh*t, STOP DREAMING, ITS OVER!
The only achievement you can get is to be a slave of portuguese labour market cleaning crap from toillets or such barely having to eat but still alive - ohh what a honor, what a dignity.
Sometimes i think, today is the day, but then...blahh coward weak humilliated idiot. You are deprived from yourself and your heart still beating in vain..they won, the mighty capitalist corrupt system WON, dont you get it? Go intoxicate yourself.

No longer a beating heart, no longer the burden of life.

The new goal from the Portuguese government is to put fees that will lower even more the already low retirement pensions of the old people. Currently there are many thousands or more elder people living on the edge of poverty. There is less money and too much portuguese population. What to do? So it thinks the government. And decides: Kill them. Kill the portuguese. Starting for the older ones. Kill them slowly, so that no one notices. Those whom the government can not push away as emigrants to other countries, those who stay, need to be erased, at least most of them.. Poverty, famine, depression, diseases, suicides. This is the portuguese government strategy.
Genocide in slow motion.

My only wish is just to sleep and never awake and my spirit just vanish into nothingness, and just never think or feel anything again and enter the perfect and absolute non existence.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpGqKvaLK3s

Economic crisis is killing people. Suffering, Struggle and Pain kills slowly. Heart deseases are related and linked to depression. A Heart has to deal with enormous pressure of emotions and pain. Even if the future will bring happier times, people like me will be then too sick and destroyed mentally and phisically to start to live again. Time wastes, Suffering kills.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKzCgvIQrtE

i am a coward. I guess inside me there is a small stupid sense of denial that cannot just cope and believe things had come to such an unbearable point. I am a coward. Too coward to take the very last step.

Years ago, i valued so much every single day when i went to the only worth forest near Lisbon - Sintra. Long walks through forest, every beautiful detail, sunrise, sunset, the misterious moonlight over the trees, the mist, how i loved it so much...but not anymore, my enemies torn my forest from my heart.
Today Sintra has walls and is guarded because it became a comercial thing for wealthy tourists. Here you cannot just go to nature when you want. It belongs to the rich.
Unlike Scandinavia where nature belongs freely to people, here the few forest left is the playground of the wealthy, those who can afford gas and the ultra expensive tickets to enter the forest park. Go there at night (which is so magical and beautiful) or camp there? Dont even try. You will be caugh by guards and treated as a criminal. I still go there sometimes but is very rare. Nature became a wealthy people private garden, a capitalist thing, and we the less wealthy have to stay around concrete walls and rot to death.
I hate those who stole my dear Sintra forest from my heart.
This country became a desgusting place, depressing, ruled by traitors that will be my murderers. If i am not brave enough to die by my hand, sickness and pain will end me.

one way ticket to non-existance please